These are the times that I wish I were straight..honestly. I get kinda bitter towards the gay population..myself included. It's such a fucking meat market.
"You meet the man of your dreams..and I'm meeting his beautiful wife..."
Sing it Alanis you emotional canadian songstress.
I guess I'm tired of always being put on the back burner...every guy I meet has all of these little things on the side. "you're a GREAT GUY!" "You have SUCH a cool personality!" Yeah yeah yeah..but I'm not pretty. If I were pretty..I'm fairly convinced I could take over the world..but I'm not so here I sit. I didn't walk out of a magazine photo shoot..no one walks by me and says "DAYUM! I want him to fuck the hell out of me!" Which..I'm moderately ok with. I don't want someone to just be interested in me for the way that I look..but I can't help feeling that everyone that I meet thinks.."Oh he's cool, but...Sphen..is cool AND he's hot maybe I can start something with HIM."
And ya know what I hate just as much? is that I'm totally guilty of that too..putting others on the back burner so that I can try..and subsequently fail on trying to rope in..well we'll just call him "The highest bidder." Hell..I'm kinda doing that right now. I'm not ok with it regardless of who is doing it to whom...but I especially don't like it when it's done to me. I know I don't have any fascinations of being with guys or having things that I know I can't have or deserve..as if someone could really "Deserve" someone else I guess...that's a whole other rant. I also can't fight the feeling that, when guys that I spend time with..just in general, with no one person in specific..send out all of these signals like..kissing..snuggling...fooling around..what have you and then they aren't interested in actually dating me, like it was wasted time(longest run-on sentence ever! lol). Like..umm..don't do that if you don't want to date me..cause I pretty much know whether or not I want to date a person within the first few hours of knowing them. If I've got my tongue in your mouth..you're pretty much great in my book. Why can't others be like this? Don't try to seduce me if that's all you want. But who am I really to blame? The guy for being attracted to me for a moment..or myself for not putting on the brakes? I'm naive I guess..still attach certain emotional expectations on intimacy. I guess I'm attractive enough to sleep with at least..... Always look at the silver lining right?
I don't know..I've been very unsettled as of late. Tired of people(lol mostly guys) going in and out of my life..wanting a few individuals to stick around..but seeing as how there has already been a level of intimacy established previous to the "Freind" thing...that may not be possible with some of them. We'll see...
That's my rant..kinda hypocritical I know...just felt like bitching. Send a "HAAAAYYY" if you're feelin me on this one.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Monday, August 27, 2007
Yay start of classes!
I am soooo friggin tired! Classes....suck! Started with concert band rehearsal at 8 am...not thrilled at ALL about it. Plus I HATE the conductor. He is a condescending pompus prick... Then to Russian, which was cool. it's like 24 people squeezed into a tiny ass room. But quite a few cute guys..and the teacher seems to be very nice and her accent is amazing. Orchestration was boring...Dr. Newman unfortunately can get on rants that always seem to make me fall asleep. He's cool as hell most the time..but ugg. So I'm sitting at work..bored as hell..trying desperately to stay awake. Totally going home and napping. Anyone wanna come snuggle with me?
Friday, August 24, 2007
just found out my moon sign is scorpio
2-8 Taurus/Scorpio
The combination of your Sun sign and your Moon sign produces a personality possessing a good deal more emotional intensity that is normally observed in the very stable Taurus Sun sign native. A very attractive cover hides the emotionally temperamental side of your nature. There is a very "definite" quality about you that insists black is black and white is white, and the many shades of gray don't exist. You have a very strong and passionate nature that knows what it wants and how to get it. You are very headstrong, self-willed, and independent. Your charm is instantaneous, and this coupled with your dramatic flare, shows talent for acting and speaking. You like being noticed and there is nothing at all timid about you. You are very appealing to the opposite sex, but the temperament you release when your reserve breaks down can make personal relationships very stormy. With all the tools that you have to get ahead, it wouldn't be hard for you to go far. Strangely however, your ambition to do so may not be as strong as many of your competitor who you pass along the way may believe. The tension that seems always to be building up constantly produces the urge to get away from it all and let yourself completely relax. You need this reprieve to avoid the stress to which you are rather susceptible.
The combination of your Sun sign and your Moon sign produces a personality possessing a good deal more emotional intensity that is normally observed in the very stable Taurus Sun sign native. A very attractive cover hides the emotionally temperamental side of your nature. There is a very "definite" quality about you that insists black is black and white is white, and the many shades of gray don't exist. You have a very strong and passionate nature that knows what it wants and how to get it. You are very headstrong, self-willed, and independent. Your charm is instantaneous, and this coupled with your dramatic flare, shows talent for acting and speaking. You like being noticed and there is nothing at all timid about you. You are very appealing to the opposite sex, but the temperament you release when your reserve breaks down can make personal relationships very stormy. With all the tools that you have to get ahead, it wouldn't be hard for you to go far. Strangely however, your ambition to do so may not be as strong as many of your competitor who you pass along the way may believe. The tension that seems always to be building up constantly produces the urge to get away from it all and let yourself completely relax. You need this reprieve to avoid the stress to which you are rather susceptible.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
I really need a dog...
I'm lonely. I'm soo incredibly lonely for some reason. I have absolutely no reason to be..I've been dating..meeting incredible guys...guys that are WAY too hot to be comming after me lol. I've been really emotional lately. just...I dont' know. I want to be in love again. I want to feel loved and attractive again. I want to feel excited by doing nothing but watching movies and snuggling with someone. I think I've gotten physical cravings out of my system..and now I want to start to develop the emotional connection with someone. I want to feel wanted...needed...sexy...... Sometimes our minds are our worst enemies. We can conjure up the most amazing dreams and flights of fancy...and the most horribly dreadful nightmares. We can look at ourselves in the mirror and believe that we're happy with various things about ourselves..and a breathe later, we think that it's a good idea to list off all of the things we hate about ourselves.
I crave to hold and be held.
I long for butterfly kisses and holding hands.
I wanna buy flowers for someone to brighten their day..
I miss making plans and looking forward to special days...
I miss waking up next to someone in the middle of the night.
I miss spending all day in bed snuggling and pillow talking.
When I get in these moods..I feel so worthless. Like there's nothing in particular that's really good about me. Like definately things that are average..things that you could find on anyone that has many more endearing and attractive characteristics. No one is going to stop themselves in their tracks to look at me cause I'm so damn hot. Why would someone want me?
It's funny cause I have absolutely NO reason to feel that way right now..looking at my life objectively..there are no real concrete reasons...no extrinsically negative things...no one is telling me that they "Just aren't attracted to me" or "you're a great guy but....you just aren't what I'm looking for." Which..if someone tells me that..they might as well call me the swamp thing hebeast from the blue lagoon.
To be fair..I have told a lot of people that I'm not looking for a relationship..which is true. I just dont' think that I am mentally equipped at the moment to be fair for the other person. But on the other hand..I miss it soo much.
I was in a relationship with Pete for so long..and I loved him sooo much. Still do really...but we have a lot to work on before we can attempt to think about being back "together." We have to make sure that we are who we want to be with..not the "we" that keeps putting ourselves aside to apease each other. Not that it happened the whole relationship..but definately felt like it was becomming too commonplace towards the end.
This song used to make me think of me a lot when I heard it while I was in High school.
"I am everything you want, I am everything you need.
I am everything inside of you that you wished you could be.
I say all the right things at exactly the right time, but I mean nothing
to you and I don't know why..."
~Vertical Horizon.
I crave to hold and be held.
I long for butterfly kisses and holding hands.
I wanna buy flowers for someone to brighten their day..
I miss making plans and looking forward to special days...
I miss waking up next to someone in the middle of the night.
I miss spending all day in bed snuggling and pillow talking.
When I get in these moods..I feel so worthless. Like there's nothing in particular that's really good about me. Like definately things that are average..things that you could find on anyone that has many more endearing and attractive characteristics. No one is going to stop themselves in their tracks to look at me cause I'm so damn hot. Why would someone want me?
It's funny cause I have absolutely NO reason to feel that way right now..looking at my life objectively..there are no real concrete reasons...no extrinsically negative things...no one is telling me that they "Just aren't attracted to me" or "you're a great guy but....you just aren't what I'm looking for." Which..if someone tells me that..they might as well call me the swamp thing hebeast from the blue lagoon.
To be fair..I have told a lot of people that I'm not looking for a relationship..which is true. I just dont' think that I am mentally equipped at the moment to be fair for the other person. But on the other hand..I miss it soo much.
I was in a relationship with Pete for so long..and I loved him sooo much. Still do really...but we have a lot to work on before we can attempt to think about being back "together." We have to make sure that we are who we want to be with..not the "we" that keeps putting ourselves aside to apease each other. Not that it happened the whole relationship..but definately felt like it was becomming too commonplace towards the end.
This song used to make me think of me a lot when I heard it while I was in High school.
"I am everything you want, I am everything you need.
I am everything inside of you that you wished you could be.
I say all the right things at exactly the right time, but I mean nothing
to you and I don't know why..."
~Vertical Horizon.
Friday, August 10, 2007
things that make me go hmmmm
I've been thinking soo much about relationships lately. I have to admit that I have been blessed to have some wonderful people that have come into my life lately. They have been very sweet to me and pretty much..without me asking..given me everything that I needed. A laugh, a hug, a kiss or a snuggle. I know that I am not ready to be in a relationship right now..I know it. I still feel like a failure in my last relationship..and that I'm more of a burden than a blessing. I need to get over that. I know otherwise..but my heart doesn't. I think that the problem with not being in a relationship now..after having been for 2 years..is that I don't feel particularly special to anyone..no one is pursuing me per se...telling me how great and wonderful I am..and how happy I make them. No one is trying to compete for my affections. I don't really know what I expect..the more that I type..the more ridiculous I feel lol. Because I have freinds who are special to me and I to them. and even if the guys I've been affectionate with as of late don't want me around for the long haul..thats ok. It really is...they could be in a not ready place to have a relationship too. And it isn't the commitment that I crave..I don't know. I've been mildly emotional this week. no reason in particular and not emotional bad or depressed..just...emoting more than I'm used to.
I guess I was getting too comfortable in certain situations with someone and realized that those situations might not what I thought they were..or what I thought they were leading to. I am very intuitive with people..I feel them. And what I feel may not make sense to other people but it makes sense to me. Little cues that I pick up on..granted..with some people I'm completely oblivious. *shrugs* Who knows...this is probably a phase.
I guess I was getting too comfortable in certain situations with someone and realized that those situations might not what I thought they were..or what I thought they were leading to. I am very intuitive with people..I feel them. And what I feel may not make sense to other people but it makes sense to me. Little cues that I pick up on..granted..with some people I'm completely oblivious. *shrugs* Who knows...this is probably a phase.
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
random survey from Myspace
1. What is a question that people ask you that always gets on your nerves?
What do you look like without your hat? Do you EVER take it off? Yes....yes I do..obviously..if I'm wearing it..obviously it's an integral accessory to the outfit and the look! :-P
2. Name something you have in common with all your siblings.
Umm..hmm..we both like...World of Warcraft....we like....stuff....yeah my brother and I don't have much in common but we still enjoy each other's company
3. What is the greatest amount of physical pain you have ever endured?
Physical pain? probably any one of the occaisions that I dislocated my knee..the most recent was probably the worst.
4. What number of alcoholic drinks is your limit?
to what? not drive? or not Die? no limit...if I'm driving I can have 4 or 5 drinks and still be good to go. I know it isn't legal...bite me.
5. Do you fold your underwear? Yes.
6. Name someone you consider a genius. whew..not too many of them in my life :-P
7. Name something random that you would do. Provided that I had work off...go on a random road trip to somewhere...wherever that may be...
8. Name something that made you laugh today.
So a long time ago my freind Emily took pictures of me in her dorm at Oakland Univ. while I was explaining to her proper fellatio techniques while pointing to errogenous zones of the penis on a dildo. She sent me one of those pics today saying it should be my myspace pic.
9. If you were in an emergency situation and you had to deliver a baby, could you do it? "It's like Horrorporn! There are just some places you don't expect to see a face!" Quoted from a British version of Freinds called Coupling.
10. What is on your refrigerator door? Magnets, maybe a picture...a dry erase board with Roxanne's drawing of stick figure girls with huge tatas.
11. Name the closest thing to you that is green. It's a toss up between the carpet and the binder on my desk.....they look to me to be about equidistant.
12. If someone who didn't know you had to guess your name, what hint would you give them?
Well..I guess it would depend on what nationality they were...All black people think all white boys are named Kyle :-P. But seriously..I might just have them guess whatever..and go by that name till I ran in to someone I knew. SURPRISE! You uh...guessed my MIDDLE name!
13. Name something you have to do tomorrow?Work...8-5
14. Have you ever called 911? yes..but only once or twice...I think. I'm pretty sure...ok yeah I don't remember.
15. Do You Own An iPod? nope..I have a kick ass phone that..once i figure out how to use it..will be my Ipod...and quite possibly my tricorder..and...instrument with which I will use to take over the world....
16. Do Any Of Your Friends Have Children?Yes
17. What CD Is Currently In Your Cd Player? Anoushka Shankar's album Rise
18. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate Milk?Umm..yes. I inhale milk...so I take it how i get it.
19. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This Week? hmm..not sure. there are very few "Secrets" in my group of freinds. We all pretty much call and tell everyone and ask what they think.
20. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks? Starbucks specifically? at least....7 months.
21. Can You Whistle? not very well.
22. Are You Currently Wanting Any Piercings Or Tattoos?nope
23. Do You Get Along Better With The Same Sex Or The Opposite? Get along better as in...freinds? or get along better as in.... I would say I get along better with girls than I do with guys..but I can make freinds with just about anyone.
24. Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?side mostly
25. What song are you listening to? Umm..hmm..the magical Mechanics of Printers? by umm....Hewlett Packard? It's pretty hot...totally my jizzam.
26. What does it remind you of?umm..work?
27. Which of your friends lives closest to you?Soon to be MORGIAN! I guess Steve but..he lives with me so..would that reallly count?
28. What did you do last night? partied hardy with some of the most amazing people on God's creation...although some others there...not so amazing :-P you know who you are
29. What big concerts are you looking forward to?none so far.
30. What annoys you?Stuff...
31. Next vacation you're going on? *shrugs* probably Roxanne's this weekend. If she ever got on Yahoo..we could chat about it all day while I'm at work today..tomorrow..and Friday. *cough*
32. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? I never really understood this expression..is it gas? Anxiety? Love? Diharrea?
33. What did you dream last night?I don't dream...and I didn't last night.
34. Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?no..and it had better not start. :-P
35. Where was your first make out? in the back seat of my Dad's pimped out Fly assed blue astro van...yeah! lol...in the parking lot of Whiting...but who..that has worked there hasn't? *cough* Kristen?
36. What are you doing tomorrow?Working 8-5
37. What is something you've learned about yourself recently?That I need to really start keeping to my guns about doing what I say I'm gonna do...rather than tell people what I shoudl do.
38. Do you like anyone? Actually a few people at the moment.
39. Do you know anyone who's married? yeah
40. What's your favorite number? um....20q09394-0985-2309486-09568
41. Who was the last person to make you cry? myself.
42. What are you doing? I was talking with some Box office people that came out and chatted with me while I'm working in reception..and then I made small talk with the director of Wharton.
43. when was the last time you cried? a couple days ago.
44. What is one thing you miss about your past?Knowing how I was going to save the world...and all the family members that hadn't passed away.
45. Are you jealous of anyone? Not at present.
46. Is anyone jealous of you? I would assume so..but you never know
48. Has anyone recently told you that they like you more than as a friend?not lately unfortunately.
49. Who was the last person you drove with? Adam
50. What are you looking forward to? the weekend.
51. How are you today? Lethargic
52. What's your worst experience? Being 17 and finding out that your mother had passed away earlier that morning.
53. Are you currently single? yes
54. How many things in your past do you regret? Nothing so far. Might redo if given a choice..but certainly not regret.
55. Do you have a best friend? a few all over the place..they're my security network..They've always caught me when I fell.
56. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?only two? and in a whole night?..you obviously haven't been down to Concord..oh wait...waht happens in concord..stays in concord....
57. Have you ever been in the emergency room?yes
58. What's the last movie you watched? Jackass:the Movie...LOVE tv-links.co.uk
59. If you could change anything about your past, what would you change? not a whole lot..since I probably wouldn't know then..what I know now. I think the biggest one would be that I never got to tell my mother that I thought she was a good mom...definately taught me that you never know when the last time you're going to see someone is...I think that's part of why I'm so blunt and sincere.
60. Have you ever felt like killing somebody? Killing? just killing? no. Inflicting massive amounts of pain that could most likely lead to death...or prayer of death just for a second of release from the agonizing torture of..... No..never thought of killing someone lol
61. Do you like your life? It's the only one I've got..so yes. I do. They know me here and the food is generally very good.
62. When was the last time you were extremely disappointed? eh..ask me about it.
63. What kind of music do you like? Classical, top 40, Indian Traditional, Celtic...bits and pieces of everything.
64. Does anything hurt on your body right now?Oh my neck....oh my back...oh my neck and my back...I want uh hundred and fifty thousand! Maybe 200 and some envelopes?
65. Do you have more friends that are girls or guys?girls
66. How long have you had myspace?maybe a year?
67. Have you ever fallen asleep with someone of the opposite sex?Yes..Roxannes a spider monkey in the sack!
68. What's one thing you wish you could be better at? Being entirely ok with things that I know are legitimately out of my power.
69. Have you ever had feelings for someone who lived in a different state? hmm...I don't think so.
70. What are some of your biggest fears of your life?not accomplishing anything.
71. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? who hasn't?
72. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? dumb question..I mean..rather this is a love interest or not..everyone's had a family member, freind, etc that has been in a situation that they didn't prefer..or they just really pissed you off.
73. Are you happy with your looks?Some days
74. Have you kissed any one on your top list?Yes.
75. Do you like to sing?Love singing. I try and sing in as many groups as I can. I currently perform with the Steiner Chorale of Lansing when it is in season.
76. What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you've dated? (or been married to) 6 months to a year.
77. Are looks important?yes...looks attract me..but it's personality, wit and intelligence that keeps me.
78.What are you listening to? The phone ringing.
79. Where do you want to be? In bed.
80. Do you believe in love? I love too many people and love too many things to not believe in love.
What do you look like without your hat? Do you EVER take it off? Yes....yes I do..obviously..if I'm wearing it..obviously it's an integral accessory to the outfit and the look! :-P
2. Name something you have in common with all your siblings.
Umm..hmm..we both like...World of Warcraft....we like....stuff....yeah my brother and I don't have much in common but we still enjoy each other's company
3. What is the greatest amount of physical pain you have ever endured?
Physical pain? probably any one of the occaisions that I dislocated my knee..the most recent was probably the worst.
4. What number of alcoholic drinks is your limit?
to what? not drive? or not Die? no limit...if I'm driving I can have 4 or 5 drinks and still be good to go. I know it isn't legal...bite me.
5. Do you fold your underwear? Yes.
6. Name someone you consider a genius. whew..not too many of them in my life :-P
7. Name something random that you would do. Provided that I had work off...go on a random road trip to somewhere...wherever that may be...
8. Name something that made you laugh today.
So a long time ago my freind Emily took pictures of me in her dorm at Oakland Univ. while I was explaining to her proper fellatio techniques while pointing to errogenous zones of the penis on a dildo. She sent me one of those pics today saying it should be my myspace pic.
9. If you were in an emergency situation and you had to deliver a baby, could you do it? "It's like Horrorporn! There are just some places you don't expect to see a face!" Quoted from a British version of Freinds called Coupling.
10. What is on your refrigerator door? Magnets, maybe a picture...a dry erase board with Roxanne's drawing of stick figure girls with huge tatas.
11. Name the closest thing to you that is green. It's a toss up between the carpet and the binder on my desk.....they look to me to be about equidistant.
12. If someone who didn't know you had to guess your name, what hint would you give them?
Well..I guess it would depend on what nationality they were...All black people think all white boys are named Kyle :-P. But seriously..I might just have them guess whatever..and go by that name till I ran in to someone I knew. SURPRISE! You uh...guessed my MIDDLE name!
13. Name something you have to do tomorrow?Work...8-5
14. Have you ever called 911? yes..but only once or twice...I think. I'm pretty sure...ok yeah I don't remember.
15. Do You Own An iPod? nope..I have a kick ass phone that..once i figure out how to use it..will be my Ipod...and quite possibly my tricorder..and...instrument with which I will use to take over the world....
16. Do Any Of Your Friends Have Children?Yes
17. What CD Is Currently In Your Cd Player? Anoushka Shankar's album Rise
18. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate Milk?Umm..yes. I inhale milk...so I take it how i get it.
19. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This Week? hmm..not sure. there are very few "Secrets" in my group of freinds. We all pretty much call and tell everyone and ask what they think.
20. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks? Starbucks specifically? at least....7 months.
21. Can You Whistle? not very well.
22. Are You Currently Wanting Any Piercings Or Tattoos?nope
23. Do You Get Along Better With The Same Sex Or The Opposite? Get along better as in...freinds? or get along better as in.... I would say I get along better with girls than I do with guys..but I can make freinds with just about anyone.
24. Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?side mostly
25. What song are you listening to? Umm..hmm..the magical Mechanics of Printers? by umm....Hewlett Packard? It's pretty hot...totally my jizzam.
26. What does it remind you of?umm..work?
27. Which of your friends lives closest to you?Soon to be MORGIAN! I guess Steve but..he lives with me so..would that reallly count?
28. What did you do last night? partied hardy with some of the most amazing people on God's creation...although some others there...not so amazing :-P you know who you are
29. What big concerts are you looking forward to?none so far.
30. What annoys you?Stuff...
31. Next vacation you're going on? *shrugs* probably Roxanne's this weekend. If she ever got on Yahoo..we could chat about it all day while I'm at work today..tomorrow..and Friday. *cough*
32. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? I never really understood this expression..is it gas? Anxiety? Love? Diharrea?
33. What did you dream last night?I don't dream...and I didn't last night.
34. Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?no..and it had better not start. :-P
35. Where was your first make out? in the back seat of my Dad's pimped out Fly assed blue astro van...yeah! lol...in the parking lot of Whiting...but who..that has worked there hasn't? *cough* Kristen?
36. What are you doing tomorrow?Working 8-5
37. What is something you've learned about yourself recently?That I need to really start keeping to my guns about doing what I say I'm gonna do...rather than tell people what I shoudl do.
38. Do you like anyone? Actually a few people at the moment.
39. Do you know anyone who's married? yeah
40. What's your favorite number? um....20q09394-0985-2309486-09568
41. Who was the last person to make you cry? myself.
42. What are you doing? I was talking with some Box office people that came out and chatted with me while I'm working in reception..and then I made small talk with the director of Wharton.
43. when was the last time you cried? a couple days ago.
44. What is one thing you miss about your past?Knowing how I was going to save the world...and all the family members that hadn't passed away.
45. Are you jealous of anyone? Not at present.
46. Is anyone jealous of you? I would assume so..but you never know
48. Has anyone recently told you that they like you more than as a friend?not lately unfortunately.
49. Who was the last person you drove with? Adam
50. What are you looking forward to? the weekend.
51. How are you today? Lethargic
52. What's your worst experience? Being 17 and finding out that your mother had passed away earlier that morning.
53. Are you currently single? yes
54. How many things in your past do you regret? Nothing so far. Might redo if given a choice..but certainly not regret.
55. Do you have a best friend? a few all over the place..they're my security network..They've always caught me when I fell.
56. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?only two? and in a whole night?..you obviously haven't been down to Concord..oh wait...waht happens in concord..stays in concord....
57. Have you ever been in the emergency room?yes
58. What's the last movie you watched? Jackass:the Movie...LOVE tv-links.co.uk
59. If you could change anything about your past, what would you change? not a whole lot..since I probably wouldn't know then..what I know now. I think the biggest one would be that I never got to tell my mother that I thought she was a good mom...definately taught me that you never know when the last time you're going to see someone is...I think that's part of why I'm so blunt and sincere.
60. Have you ever felt like killing somebody? Killing? just killing? no. Inflicting massive amounts of pain that could most likely lead to death...or prayer of death just for a second of release from the agonizing torture of..... No..never thought of killing someone lol
61. Do you like your life? It's the only one I've got..so yes. I do. They know me here and the food is generally very good.
62. When was the last time you were extremely disappointed? eh..ask me about it.
63. What kind of music do you like? Classical, top 40, Indian Traditional, Celtic...bits and pieces of everything.
64. Does anything hurt on your body right now?Oh my neck....oh my back...oh my neck and my back...I want uh hundred and fifty thousand! Maybe 200 and some envelopes?
65. Do you have more friends that are girls or guys?girls
66. How long have you had myspace?maybe a year?
67. Have you ever fallen asleep with someone of the opposite sex?Yes..Roxannes a spider monkey in the sack!
68. What's one thing you wish you could be better at? Being entirely ok with things that I know are legitimately out of my power.
69. Have you ever had feelings for someone who lived in a different state? hmm...I don't think so.
70. What are some of your biggest fears of your life?not accomplishing anything.
71. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? who hasn't?
72. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? dumb question..I mean..rather this is a love interest or not..everyone's had a family member, freind, etc that has been in a situation that they didn't prefer..or they just really pissed you off.
73. Are you happy with your looks?Some days
74. Have you kissed any one on your top list?Yes.
75. Do you like to sing?Love singing. I try and sing in as many groups as I can. I currently perform with the Steiner Chorale of Lansing when it is in season.
76. What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you've dated? (or been married to) 6 months to a year.
77. Are looks important?yes...looks attract me..but it's personality, wit and intelligence that keeps me.
78.What are you listening to? The phone ringing.
79. Where do you want to be? In bed.
80. Do you believe in love? I love too many people and love too many things to not believe in love.
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